To not be able to know the name of your fear so you become more scared and more and more until youre literally freaked out by any word longer than 5 letters
omg I have been absent for so long I just went into your realm today and it brought tears to my ears, to this day, I still think about you, I still sneak little bits into my drawings that are dedicated to you and no one else understands, you make me so happy and I knew it wasn't the end of our friendship.