I am just feeling that it would be better to take another break from the forum for a while. I feel that I may need an extra refresher, that's all, and this may also give my body a chance to repair itself without difficulties.
I hope that by October, I will have healed fully, and I will be ready to greet everyone with a wider smile, a better soul, and a bigger heart.
I think I should be somewhat thanking that mosquito. It helped me value being alive, something that all of humanity takes for granted. I had some dark thoughts while I was recovering (and I still am), such as the...feeling of being dead. I am in no way saying that I WANT to be dead. I'm just asking myself what it would feel like.
It really scares me, and others think that I just overthink things or I'm just some nervous wreck, but I have something to say to those people...
"You live your incomplete and taken-for-granted lives, and I will try to live mine to the fullest."